Mirage

Those walls are too high
These silences too long
The wait too painful
This undercurrent too strong

The mirage that brought me here
Is suddenly unclear
When you shut yourself up
The end seems too near

Would put the smile back on your face if I could
Will set you free if you would
All you need to do is say it
If it has to happen I can brave it

Atom Bomb

Kapda hai bahut zyada par kameez bahut tang hai…
Bomb bahut zyada aur roti bahut kam hai…

Sharaab bahut zyada phir bhi pyaas se nikala dum hai…
Log bahut zyada aur insaan kitne kam hai…

Chaah bahut zyada par milta bahut kam hai…
Baadal hain bahut zyada par baraste bahut kam hain…

Soch bahut umda par hathon mein nahin dum hai,
Bhediye zyada aur bakriyaan kum hai…

Bimaar bahut zyada aur ilaaj bahut kam hai,
Padhai bahut zyada par samajh bahut kam hai…

Ghar bahaut bade par darwaaze bahut tang hain,
Humare censor board ka dimaag bahut tang hai…

Khusk dimagon mein zoron ka laga jung hai,
Insaan ki insaan se apas mein machi jung hai….

Sarkaar chutiyon kee aur akhbaar unkee dum hai,
Oonchee imaraton ke baju mein phaili slum hain…

Neta hain bahut zyada aur voters bahut kum hain,
Khabrein bahut zyada aur vishleshan gum hai…

Khwaab mere apke samjhne wale kum hain…
To shayad,
In sab samasyaon ka samadhan ATOM BOMB hai.

- by Sourabh
sourabhratnu@gmail.com

They say -

Curiosity killed the cat;

I say -

I'd rather be a dead cat

than an ignorant one.

I think it's going to be the death of me.

Change

So what can I say? Week before last saw a downpour - but things got out of whack only for a day. Nothing compared to last year's deluge which saw the birth of this blogger. That deluge and the downpour paled in comparison to the 7 simultaneous bomb blasts on the local railway last week. Official figures say approx 200 died. Luckily for me - I was in the office and friends and family I know were safe and sound. This must be one of those occasions when people must've thanked their stars that they were working late and that being a workaholic wasn't such a bad deal.

A few days on and I'm glad to see that Bombay hasn't seen riots of any kind because of the blasts - isn't it good that people haven't reacted violently to the blasts? Shouldn't we be thanking and applauding the people from slums and from all communities who came out to help the injured at the blasts? I think it's quite something. I know there are some who feel that callous Bombay went back to work immediately the next day and noone stopped to think that so many people had died and knowing our system there's not going be much happening in the investigations and the people who lost their lives will be forgotten in a thrice except by their closest ones - but I think most of Bombay was too stunned to do anything. I think people were so taken aback by the blasts having taken place in the heart of Bombay's lifeline for millions of commuters that most are clueless about what to do. I think everybody in their heart of hearts is grappling with the knowledge that so many innocent lives were lost and it was nothing to do with prejudices but just a plain act of terrorism. And I think it is heartening to see that the common man /woman hasn't turned violent in retaliation. I feel (and hope that I'm right) that this act of terrorism will bridge a gap between communities - that people will realise that it's not us and them but us and terrorism and that violence will bring nothing but death and destruction to innocent people.

That's what I think and I'm a pessimist most times. This time I don't know why I'm being optimistic but I just am. Maybe that's how the blasts have changed me.

So what can I say? Week before last saw a downpour - but things got out of whack only for a day. Nothing compared to last year's deluge which saw the birth of this blogger. That deluge and the downpour paled in comparison to the 7 simultaneous bomb blasts on the local railway last week. Official figures say approx 200 died. Luckily for me - I was in the office and friends and family I know were safe and sound. This must be one of those occasions when people must've thanked their stars that they were working late and that being a workaholic wasn't such a bad deal.

A few days on and I'm glad to see that Bombay hasn't seen riots of any kind because of the blasts - isn't it good that people haven't reacted violently to the blasts? Shouldn't we be thanking and applauding the people from slums and from all communities who came out to help the injured at the blasts? I think it's quite something. I know there are some who feel that callous Bombay went back to work immediately the next day and noone stopped to think that so many people had died and knowing our system there's not going be much happening in the investigations and the people who lost their lives will be forgotten in a thrice except by their closest ones - but I think most of Bombay was too stunned to do anything. I think people were so taken aback by the blasts having taken place in the heart of Bombay's lifeline for millions of commuters that most are clueless about what to do. I think everybody in their heart of hearts is grappling with the knowledge that so many innocent lives were lost and it was nothing to do with prejudices but just a plain act of terrorism. And I think it is heartening to see that the common man /woman hasn't turned violent in retaliation. I feel (and hope that I'm right) that this act of terrorism will bridge a gap between communities - that people will realise that it's not us and them but us and terrorism and that violence will bring nothing but death and destruction to innocent people.

That's what I think and I'm a pessimist most times. This time I don't know why I'm being optimistic but I just am.

Try as I May

"This trying is so trying on me
I want to give up but it doesn't let me...
The light goes further away on this dark path
On which I stay.
I wonder -
What drives me this way...
What keeps the smile on the face while the screws turn in the heart?
Surely I wasn't sent here just to play a part...
Do I not have a say?"

What now - Now What

Things may be going a little too smoothly, you know. Have a feeling something's going to go wrong somewhere. It's all going to come crashing down pretty soon. So used to having things go wrong in my life that a little bit of steadiness makes me wonder - when is it all going to blow up?!

On the other hand - are things really going all that smooth? Let's see - I lost the gig that I actually wanted - it went to someone else. Haven't made my movie yet - I think I'm gonna bury that script soon. My short film script is languishing on the desktop - haven't gotten beyond the scene in the supermarket. Haven't finished a single one of the 3 books I started reading a month ago. In fact there are some films that I haven't finished watching either - having switched them off in the middle or the beginning - not because they weren't good or anything - but couldn't concentrate. Tried meditating a few times - was successful most times except last night - I meditated for precisely 15 mins and couldn't finish the session. Why does everything have to be so difficult? Hmmm maybe things aren't going all that great?!

On Second Thoughts

Rethought that workoholic bit in my last post - and I think I was actually overworked. I wasn't a workoholic - I was over worked leaving me no time for anything else - especially life you know. Now I've quit my job and am completely underworked! Dogsitting for a friend is my latest job and helping friends with their films is my other part-time job. Watching a lot of TV; Catching up on movies - Rang De Basanti - everyone likes it except me and a few others I know; Mixed Doubles - I liked it - and hopefully it'll pull through; Element of Crime (Lars Von Trier) - I couldn't understand anything in the film altho the visuals were quite amazing; Sleeper (Woody Allen) - brilliant as all his films are - incredibly funny. Must see!

Now I gotta go back to lazing around and think about life in general!